So my husband was the youngest of seven children. Born to a mother, wed off the farm at barely 16. His mother told me many things after her husband died, things which she had kept in for WELL more than 30 years, as i learned because, no one cared, as, she really did not matter.
She began talking to me by sharing with me the reason why they had separate bedrooms (when they moved into the condo we were sitting in), “So she could get a good night's sleep,” as “he wouldn't keep his hands to himself.”
She told me that she didnt want to have the last three pregnancies. She also said, after my husband was born that she had asked the doctor to, “Fix her,” and he said, “Its not up to you. Its up TO YOUR HUSBAND.” ON GOD IM ENRAGED WRITING THAT.
My mother in law had no voice. Ive been ejactulated in, by someone who took that liberty, last jan 2021. And it was awful. To know someone feels so little about you. AND not only did that happen to her, at least three times (as we know, because the egg and sperm obviously took,) can you imagine having it happen to you, EVERY FUCKING NIGHT? For food and a roof. Of which youre supposed to be thankful for? Baseballs. Thats how I see such pygmy males.
Even worse, my father in law, rather then STOP HIS NIGHTLY ANTICS, ALONG WITH PULLING THE FUCK OUT, he had her sent out of the house from when the kids got out of school and she only came back after 9pm at night! So, in his mind, PROBLEM SOLVED. BUT WAS IT? THE PROBLEM WAS HIS DICK. AND HE, PLACING THAT NEED AND HIMSELF ABOVE ALL ELSE. how fucking disrespectful. But so societal.
SO< my husband grew up in a house where THE MOST IIMPORTANT LIGHT aka the woman, the MOTHER aka THE DIVINE PORTAL TO THE INFINITE ABYSS was diminished, deemed as unimportant, not really even in his life,(and we wonder WHY natural habits such as GROOMING come with such difficulty) and we also wonder why the husband is actual WOOD. DEVOID OF ALL LIGHT. And he is now, passing these fucked up ancestral traits on down to his son? And with glee?
NOT ON MY WATCH
And zen
Dont get me started on how my husband “handled” the situation when my youngest daughter, 17 at the time RAN OFF with the married 24 yr old boardwalk juggler. FOR FOR WEEKS i had asked him to confront this pos - mano to mano, because I already had, my cousin - my daughters godmother, already had too, and RATHER THAN EVER CONFRONT THIS CLOWN, I AWAKE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO A * GETTING JAMMED INTO MY VAGINA. A *. thats how that worthless pos handled THAT situation. And or SAW FIT. NOT confront daniel, rape me….which he claims isnt rape, gee I wonder why. dont let me tell you how i awoke when i passed out once at the southpoint beach house.
THIS WORTHLESS MUTHER FUCKER DOESNT LOVE ME. HE DOESNT LOVE WOMEN. HE DOESNT VALUE WOMEN. AND HE IS TEACHING THAT TO MY SON. AND IVE JUST MYSELF TO HANDLE THIS SITUATION AS EVERYONE WANTS TO PRETEND THAT THIS ISNT THE PROBLEM THAT BLATANTLY IT IS AND OR HAS BECOME.
And zen
(i cant find no love and or sympathy…….peter tosh…yes….need)
Anyway
NOW
This is why im at war. Theres no hope for this worthless individual.
Ive made allowances at the sake of myself. Forgiving him for things i never should have however now the war is so clear. IT’S FOR the kid….AND FOR HIS SPIRIT.
LIKE KING SOLOMON AND WILL THE REAL PARENT PLEASE RISE.
LET HIM CRIPPLE AND BECOME A ROCK, DEVOID OF ALL LIGHT JUST TO FULLFILL HIS WORTHLESS DEVIL POS FATHERS NEEDS, OR UUUUUUUUU (that happened by accident however obviously the spirits know whats up obviously ) #NEVERFALLINGDOWN TEACH HIM HOW TO FLY AWAY FROM HIS FATHER, ME, FLY TO WHERE HE WANTS TO GO AND SEE WHAT HE WANTS TO SEE, BE. BEEEEEE WHO HE WAS BORN TO BE. Which isnt his father, on a scooter hiding from the world, behind a screen while, stealing, lying cheating raping but by being more like me, a LIGHT. but not really because we dont want hiim to suucumb to worthless pieces of chit).
And I NEED to evaluate WHY i allowed this worthless absolutely worthless pos treat me and my ship as he did.
