WACO: A Reminder

I watched this the other night, and not only became angry, again, but noted two things I need to share with you.

Near the beginning of this doc, at one of the very first scenes for the Senate hearings on this Waco massacre, first I noted that horrible gremlin of a human, Elena Kagan sitting to the left of the screen, front row in the audience, WITH THE HAPPIEST GRIN ON HER FACE.  Second thing I noted, that spineless shrew of a human, sen. Schumer of NY, SMILE, after a witness from the massacre detailed the DEATH OF HIS DAUGHTER!

There IS a common denominator between kagan and schumer.  They're lucifarians.

These people are vile, they've infiltrated all of our establishment, (sorry, CREATED our establishment) and now they want total control over us by going after our guns. NEVERMIND that their pharmaceuticals have given us a FAR higher maim and body count of US citizens on US soil. Doped, damaged and dead are fine to them. Having self defense from them is utterly, reprehensible. Think about that.

Lastly, David Koresh was right, about everything!

In Jesus' Name.

Hoopla Surrounding the Charities: TRUST NO ONE

I, for one am not surprised by what's coming out right now about the different charities, and their abuse of, "power." The taking advantage of others, the sex - with children and or adults.  It's despicable, but not a surprise to me at all.   I had spent time on the street, as you know.

Actually, let me share something I learned back then, and mind you, I grew up with a mother who was often at the head of and or a founder of various charities. (and I love her, God rest her soul, but she was a hypocrite of the highest degree, and she knows it).

Few charities, few richies, ever helped when I was on the street.  This may seem and sound arrogant of me, but, I used to call that experience, my, "Christ-like experiment," for it showed you, who really helps those in need, and who doesn't.

Those who helped, without ever wanting anything in return, were always the downtrodden; the five dollar hookers, the other poor, the illegals, and even the drug dealers. They'd give us food, (not drugged), have their friends put us up in their hotels (the Indians), share money, etc..  The richies, would walk by and say I should have my kids ripped from me, and call the cops, (little did they know, the cops and I were on friendly terms, so...).  They never shared, never bought us food, or a place to stay.

Anyway, what really gets me the most about this whole charity thing, is that, even worse than these men using these people as basically, a tissue, (to shoot their sperm into), how many of these people, BELIEVED that maybe, commitment, marriage, would be in the cards for them?  Can you imagine?  How flipping hurtful.  Seriously.

This brings me to a recent show that was on TLC, called, 90 Day Fiance (my husband is an addict).  I tried watching this with the husband, but was made SO UNCOMFORTABLE, by a character, in Haiti, who seemed to, and was likely, just such a person (using these people as nothing more than tissues), I said something to the husband, something along the lines of, "what do you want to bet he's a clinton foundation or from some other charity down there to, "help."" The husband noted, as the series progressed, it was clear that this character, dropped/moved on from this girl, because she, "got a bit too old for his tastes." SPECULATION on both of our parts, yes, however, usually, when my gut radar goes off, it's usually right.

Check out this, smarmy fellow, in the clip below, and tell me he doesn't make your stomach do flips.

Child Sexual Abuse & An Open Secret (doc)

While responding to a video in regards to the Jehovah Witness possible child sex ring***, etc. I shared something I know, yet had hidden away in my memories; that of the lack thereof, of those within the psychology fields, of handing over said abusers to law enforcement.

I spent a great deal of my childhood locked away in NYS rehabs (four winds, arms acres, st. vincent's, etc), a behavioral modification school (Amity in italy), and a halfway house in chippewa falls, WI. I was sent to most, for being, "on the pot!," with the exceptions of four winds, and then amity, as I was sent to those in succession for running away from my home when I was 14.  The rest were subsequent.  ***

ALL of those places mentioned above, were FILLED, PRIMARILY WITH ADOLESCENTS.  Adolescents who had been sexually abused in their childhoods, and usually, in their homes.  These things would come out within group therapy sessions, and for the most part, I believed them all.  There were a few at Amity who I feel, were pressured into saying it, being as we'd be locked in a room, on the other side of the ocean, indefinitely until they, "cracked." But the rest, my gut told me then, and now, that these kids were telling the truth.

NOW, NEVER, DID I ONCE SEE LEGAL CHARGES BROUGHT FORTH AGAINST SAID ACCUSED.  NOT ONCE.  And to make matters worse, the accused would often come around whichever campus we were on!  Even sadder, at these places within the United States, IF a kid would act out, have a freak out, etc., which can be common, WHEN NO ONE IS LISTENING TO YOU, you can bet the staff would call law enforcement, adding more trouble onto to an already troubled child's life. 

OK> some food for thought, CHILD SEXUAL ABUSE WASN'T EVEN A, "THING," UNTIL THE 1970's.  Just think about that for a moment.  

Finally, here's a link to the documentary film, An Open Secret (about the pedophlia problem plaguing hollywood).

https://vimeo.com/142444429

Have a good day.

*** I became a "druggie," after leaving these places - so, 18+, and a heroin addict, 20+, though sober since the ages of 24/25.  My mentality/logic, at that time had been, why not become all the things I've been labeled, AND, I did, want to try to die.  Dio Mio!  My adolescence is probably why I embrace the aging process now!!! For, it is nothing short of a miracle that I'm alive, after having such idiotic thought processes as a youngster, lol.

*** there were often Jehovah Witness kids in the NYS rehabs, and with what they'd share, this news of child sex rings within their church, is not a surprise.

BLESSINGS! 

A Connection Between Lil Peep's Death and Philip Ahr?

Ok guys, gals.  You know me, I tend to read inbetween the lines when reading the news, and see connections that may only be clear to me (although, I do have a tendency of finding out I was right in the end).  So here's my latest, "connection," I noted, and have since, come across two things to support my, "theory."

The Death of Lil' Peep

I had not even heard of Lil Peep until his death.  But what I had mentally noted, was his unusual last name of, Ahr.  I found myself unable to shake running his name through my head, Gustav Ahr, that whole day and night.  Then it hit me!  I had google +'ed and article, around this past Halloween, of a PA politician, from the county over, named, Philip Ahr, who had been arrested for possession of a HOARD of filthy, sick and HIGHLY ILLEGAL pornography (links below)!

http://www.philly.com/philly/news/crime/phil-ahr-resigns-as-radnor-township-board-president-amid-child-porn-allegations-20171023.html

http://heavy.com/news/2017/10/philip-phil-ahr-radnor-pennsylvania-democrat-child-porn/

In the article I had first read about Lil' peep's death, in the daily mail.uk, they said, his parents met at harvard and he was born in - PA (the only article I can find now, makes no mention of PA.  I promise you, I did not imagine it).

Ok, so so far, we have two people in the news, in a very short span of time, both with the last name of AHR and BOTH, with ties to the state of Pennsylvania.

Now, My Theory on the, "Connection." 

It is definitely, more than likely that Philip Ahr, the perverted politician, wasn't just looking at this gross trove, but partaking in and with the YOUTHFUL flesh as well (his, "mentoring," as mentioned in the Heavy.com article linked above, is certainly more than a red flag).  Now, what better way to send a signal/warning shot to him, to KEEP HIS MOUTH SHUT, in regards to those who are trafficking the children for sex in PA (from philly, chester and lancaster counties, all the way up to state college and everywhere inbetween), than to cause the death of someone connected to him, AND to blatantly get away with it?  Not to mention, an addict is THE easiest and most perfect person to murder.   No one will ever think twice.

So, IT WAS MURDER!

I came to this conclusion, connecting my mental dots last Friday.  Either yesterday, or the day before (Monday), I came across an article on MediaTakeOut talking about how, Lil Peep was given, "hot," xanax, (or whatever pills were his drug of choice).   Link below.

http://mtonews.com/mto-shock-exclusive-2/

I realize they're not, the most reliable news source, yet there it is.

Just now, I came across this video, Black Child Productions posted on youtube, please go to the six minute mark.

People, I think we have a winner!

There is NOT a more profitable business in the world than that of trafficking human beings, with children at the TOP of that pyramid. 

I know, that the person, I allude to often when talking about my daughter's case, was and most likely still IS, the JEFFREY EPSTEIN of PA, and if he falls, so many highly established people will fall too.  It's a tower, they cannot afford to have crumble.  Just like a perverted game of Jenga.

Be well, be strong, be vigilant and be with us, with God.

Have a good day.

A Moment of Therapy: Sex Assaults, and on the Young (w/added thought)

With all of the hoopla coming out currently about the highly, sexual atmosphere of Hollywood, and elsewhere, really, I've found myself reading headlines, and thinking, of how many similar situations I had been in myself.  I had also found myself getting slightly irritated that most of the cases involved women who quite honestly, should've known better (don't get offended, and let me explain).

Several months ago, I was thinking to myself, that it had probably been safer for me, in the long run, to have abandoned the world of the, "elite," at the prime age (18) and instead, taking refuge on the street.  At that time,  as I was reflecting, I was thinking only in terms of, being put, putting myself in a situation where I couldn't have run away, and sought help (i.e.: a secluded estate, vs the city street), because, God knows, I would've (put myself in such a situation).  I wasn't even thinking of terms of, putting myself in situations for 'bettering myself," (i.e.: fame, a job, etc.), because at that age, when I left the, "civilized world," I just wanted to party, or get fucked up (drugged out of my mind), and whichever road got me there, I was in, on it.

Which brings me to the current situation.  I was getting angry because I would compare the women coming out about Weinstein, to the kids, being put into a situation where they didn't have a choice.  The abuse, was survival. Such as what happened to me at my boarding school (which was in Italy, therefor I was physically isolated from family, as well as what little communication was allowed with them; letters, phone calls, even visits, were all monitored).  I played the game.  The headmaster never, physically sexually assaulted me, however, I was ordered by him, to, "break in," an 18 year old virgin, and then tell him all about our weekend of, "fucking like rabbits.:  I had to do this, in his apartment, sitting on his lap, while he was in an open robe, with his boxers on and penis slipping out.  Of course, at that time, I knew that was inappropriate, especially in a school which thrived on expelling, "unacceptable behavior."  Nonetheless, I played the game.  I was 15, 16 years old.

However, two headlines struck me today, and one, brought up for me how one, "teacher," from this same boarding school, would lend this 18 year old virgin and me, his apartment, and hotel rooms for us to have sex in.  Something, which only now, do I realized how, unacceptable that was too.  This led me to think about, and REALIZE, that my barometer of what was acceptable for my body was askew.  And why?   My issues with lack of self worth began with my adopted father.  And, it was that initial bout of having my body violated as a nine year old, THAT ONE TIME, as that is all I remember, (though it is documented, as I began wetting the bed, which led my mother to get my a psychiatrist), that fucked me up so.  Actually, so much more than I had realized.

But here's my point; that sole indiscretion on my adopted father's part, fucked me up so much, subconsciously, that for the next fifteen or more years, I had lost what an acceptable barometer was for how men treated me and my body! For the second headline today was in reference to another celeb who had a propensity for having sex with women who were passed out.  That was how I met my youngest daughters father!  Something which although DID repulse me, yet I accepted being as I felt I didn't matter.

Now I am bringing this all up, because I mentioned to my youngest daughter about that celeb, because I was on the fence of whether charges should be brought now.  The fence being; the person who did that to me, my youngest daughter's father, went on to rape her too.  Something, that wouldn't have happened if I had felt I was worth more.

And then she and I were discussing this, discussing how even would pursuing criminal charges be worth it to the victims now?  Or would it be better to forgive, not forget.  Meaning,  letting go of the anger, for the perps.  It's so hard to say.

I'd like to add that I didn't get that, "barometer," until I had my kids.  And it was still, only for them.  I couldn't allow things to happen to them, that happened to me.  They weren't like me.  They were and are, worth more than gold.  So when my daughter was being harmed, I went balls to the wall, and fought for her safety like a mother should.  Yet, it almost killed me.  For, fighting this, sex crimes against a child, children, legally - it's a nightmare.  The law is not on your side.  The cops may be, but not the people in the courtroom.  (added thought: my daughter is strong, confident now, and nothing like I was.  I know, she wouldn't be mad if Dexter dealt with her father, but I'm not sure if she'd want to go through the court, trying for justice, again.  The important thing is, she IS not on a self destructive path because, in my honest opinion, what happened to her, it was ACKNOWLEDGED.  Thus, DON'T SHUT UP- about it, men, women and children.  PLEASE.  Talking about it, will heal you.)

Anyway, I hope the rest comes out.  Everyone says marijuana, booze, jeez, sniffing pixi stixs are the, "gateways," to drugs.  NO!  I say, being sexually violated as a child is.

Go get 'em.

GODBLESS

***ADDED THOUGHT*** 11/11/17

I started watching the show, Blue, with Julia Styles on Vudu, and wanted to share, that if anyone wants to see a great depiction of the result of having your body violated as a child, (16 and under, for sure), she does a great job at it.


Have a good day!

FINALLY, Some Vindication

Great news!  Slightly.  I read this morning that, Lancaster, PA attorney, Jeffrey Mohler has been disbarred for five years.  If you have read this blog, you will remember this same clown didn't pay off my mortgage for over two months after closing.  True, he admitted it when I confronted him, AFTER being notified by my own mortgage company.

HOWEVER, in my honest opinion, there was more to our story, of him choosing ME to not pay off my mortgage. You see, also if you have read this blog, you will know that I had to fight a fight that I wouldn't wish on ANY PARENT.  That of, protecting my child, from rapists within the machine, aka The Establishment.  To recap, my kid's rapist that we know of, for certain, was her biological father.  Her biological father got involved with a wealthy, local man, known by at least THREE police departments as being a, "legal AND illegal business man."  He was involved in drugs, human trafficking and pornography.  He also paid for every lawyer to fight against me, AND he was POA for this house closing.  A closing where I was shoved into a closet, while he was treated like a king.  Therefore, Mohler and he a coincidence?  I think not.

LINKS (make sure you read the parts written in RED, for both links.  TY)

Here's where I wrote about Mohler and other corruption by the local Establishment

https://noratellicat.blogspot.com/2017/02/proof-of-judges-committing-treason.html

Re-cap of how my kid got involved, which would be good to read considering all of this, with Hollywood is coming out now, and yes, I blame the parents.  For unlike adults, KIDS ARE BEING PUT INTO SITUATIONS WHERE THEY DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE, and the parents are doing it for money.  Pimping their kids.

https://noratellicat.blogspot.com/2017/07/the-pedophile-network-reaches-everywhere.html

That jeffrey epstein character, that local, "legal and illegal," (as described by several police depth.) biz man   I just noticed, his main office, which is above a gas station off the highway, is closed, with a sign covering the sign, basically saying there's a fire sale.  Is the noose tightening?  God, I hope so.

Godbless

America, THIS is Important *no way is the way*

Greetings Everyone!

Even though I had stopped this blog, because my own ego took over, which made me feel, unlike myself, THIS, what I have to say, in regards to the Charlottesville incident, and what is happening in my beloved America is too important to not share.  Ego, be damned. 

I've lived a rather colorful life; from the wealthy suburbs of NYC, to Europe, to the streets of San Fran, venice beach -squatting, to crawling out of that, to the lowest level of poverty, now to where I am, PA.  So, I've come across a lot of different types of people, from ALL tax brackets, and here's what I need to say.

You've all, for the most part, been lovely.  I've been treated well by gang bangers in LA, NYC, the Bronx, by Latin Kings, Mexican cartel members, gutter punks, etc., basically, those considered the lowest forms of society.  

Here, in PA, in 2001-2 I ran a small, motel called, The Willow Dell, in Mohnton, PA.  The place was a real chit hole, filled with mostly, weekly renters who were stuck there.  Many of the people I met there, were also proud KKK members, renters and others in the area, and though suspicious of me at first, within our firsts conversations, I would be able to win them over - not "trying," just by being who I am.  Even though, I am not any more than 50% white and look it; brown, "ethnic," whatever.

I was able to debate, discuss our differing beliefs, and ideals, and yet, still, the people listened and liked what it was I had to say, and ended up liking- me.   The same can also be said for many of those inherently, white racists that I've met since living here (though not all - but most).  They've seemed to change their former, racist beliefs, since I've known them.  Beliefs born of simply, not knowing any better.  Most have GROWN in their ideas, changed.  

Now, the liberals that I have met, during the same period, including my own birth mother - they have not (changed).  They cannot debate, converse, NOR hear of any ideas that don't parlay with their own.  Now, why is that?

I will never speak to my own mother again, as my disdain for Hillary Clinton became the third and final straw for her and for me.

The first time she stopped speaking to me was over the gay marriage issue.  I had merely said, "Marijuana legalization should have taken precedence."  We didn't speak for several years.  I would write, call, email - all to no avail. 

The second time we stopped speaking was over my bringing the "smack down," on my then teenage son.  Her niece, another filthy liberal, witnessed it and it made her cry.  Boo Hoo.  Suffice to say, she threatened to call CPS on me, as it was, 'her duty, being as she was as a teacher from TX," to which I reminded her that I had spent our whole visit listening to her BRAG about how she AND our aunt (whom I never met), were BOTH HAVING SEXUAL AFFAIRS WITH THEIR 16 YEAR OLD EIGHTH GRADE ILLEGAL ALIEN STUDENTS!!!!!!!!!  And her "comical," story of how the aunt's toyboy was so drunk at my own mother's NYE party that he had alcohol poisoning, (I'm adopted, praise GOD) yet no one at the party, all of my mother's family, would call 911 as they were all teachers.  And, the truly "funny, " story of how she knew the aunt even had sex in the aunt's classroom, which was across the hall from hers!!!  BUT, it was my yelling at my deserving kid that WAS OFFENSIVE.

People, THIS IS THE MENTALITY OF THE LEFT.  For YEARS, I thought it was me.  Now I know, it is not.  There is something so fundamentally wrong with these people, it is not even funny.  Most are on a plethora of legal drugs, alcohol, tobacco.  Many are having and living risky sex lives, and they are stupid.  FAR TOO stupid to see through their own eyes, their lives, lies and hypocrisy.  So stupid, that they don't even realize, that it wasn't that long ago, in the beginning, when homosexuality was being shoved down our throats (and their anuses), that their mantra was that they were, "BORN THIS WAY."  NOW, born this way? WHAT!  They are changing every, single bit about themselves; girls are becoming boys and boys are becoming girls.  

The whole point of this post; the white supremacists aren't the problem, they have some valid points, as did the BLM (minus the soros backing), however NOW- we must come together.  Those of us who can and must, LISTEN, DIALOG with each other.  WE MUST COME TOGETHER -those of us who were born this way - as AMERICANS, must come together.  

I don't know about you, but I am a 100% purebred American MUTT and proud of it (the "purebred mutt" was intended).  I love my fellow american citizens; STRAIGHT, black, white, brown, red, yellow, etc.  I don't love the establishment, the media, the medical establishment, or those who worship those - the liberals.   

DON'T LET YOURSELVES FALL INTO THIS HATE - INTO THEIR CONTRIVED TRAP, AS THE LIBERALS HAVE.  FALL ONLY INTO GOD, LOVE YOURSELF, AS GOD MADE YOU, AND LOVE ALL OTHERS WHO LOVE GOD (as Muslims do too). 

In Jesus's name.