Let's Just Call This: An Ode to PANAMA DAVE

I've got a bit of a fire in my bum, over basically, the same old, same old.

This is old news, though ties in with Trump calling to, "execute drug dealers."  Jesus Christ!  Surely NOT, doctors on the pharmaceutical corps dole.  Nor the pharmaceutical companies! This phucking guy. Really.

The rapper Bobby Shmurda.

Young Bobby put himself in the limelight, with his hit song, from a few years ago, Hot N***a (below).  Take a listen.  This was deemed incriminating, and as such, search warrants issued, and I believe he was finally popped on weapons charges, and is currently serving 7 yrs.

Now, I'm not saying what young bobby was involved with and or doing was or is acceptable behavior, I merely am about to point out the INCONSISTENCY within our SYNagogue of satan, (aka the legal system).

Which brings us to the now infamous John Skippy podesta recording (I refuse to listen, but it is below).

Here's my beef.

HOW THE FUCK IS THIS GUY NOT STRUNG UP, MUSSOLINI STYLE, with his corpse, and memory being desecrated along w the alefantis', and Peter Sculleys' (of destruction of daisy, "fame,") of the world, but Bobby shmurda is imprisoned?

I'm going to end this with something I've learned from my life, which is what I base everything on.  I know I've shared a dozen times, that my life has taken me from being pretty financially well off, to living in the actual gutter, to here, where I am now, right in the middle (and in that order).

I've hung out with gang bangers, the Bobby shmurda's of the world.  The person mentioned in this title, Panama Dave was someone ALL within the establishment would fear, hunt, etc., then and probably to this day. Yet, he took me in when I was a homeless CHILD of 16 or 17.  He never tried to sex me.  Rather, he cared, clothed, fed, housed and even protected me. And yes, he was the first person I ever knew who had a chest riddled with bullet wound scars (and he would flash it, every chance he got,  always with a dance, to share his stories of how he got them, lol. True story).  He had a younger sister who lived with him too. Maybe I reminded him of her, non lo so.  All he ever wanted in return was my friendship.

BUT, and to my point, ON PAPER, he was, to, "the man," a Bobby Shmurda.  Probably and in all likelihood, worse, but, honestly, he was a good, good man.  One who would most certainly be on Trump's current, desired hit list.

MEANWHILE, just as back then and as is now, we will have the well dressed, white collar, LEGALLY raking in a minimum of $100g + a yr - pedophiles, toddler snuff commissioning, infant, toddler and child raping, ASSHOLES who will continue to WALK?!?!?! And, walk amongst us!  ON WHAT FUCKING PLANET?  NOT MINE.

People, the only hope I cling to is that, if ALL the prophecies are true, then, our time is nigh. Godwilling.

IN PEACE

PS. To Panama, I don't think I ever had the chance, or mind, to say - thank you.  I wish many blessings upon you and your sister.

PPS. Here's a palette cleanser for those who clicked on the podesta video (the devil's advocate brought me to this song).

GODBLESS

WACO: A Reminder

I watched this the other night, and not only became angry, again, but noted two things I need to share with you.

Near the beginning of this doc, at one of the very first scenes for the Senate hearings on this Waco massacre, first I noted that horrible gremlin of a human, Elena Kagan sitting to the left of the screen, front row in the audience, WITH THE HAPPIEST GRIN ON HER FACE.  Second thing I noted, that spineless shrew of a human, sen. Schumer of NY, SMILE, after a witness from the massacre detailed the DEATH OF HIS DAUGHTER!

There IS a common denominator between kagan and schumer.  They're lucifarians.

These people are vile, they've infiltrated all of our establishment, (sorry, CREATED our establishment) and now they want total control over us by going after our guns. NEVERMIND that their pharmaceuticals have given us a FAR higher maim and body count of US citizens on US soil. Doped, damaged and dead are fine to them. Having self defense from them is utterly, reprehensible. Think about that.

Lastly, David Koresh was right, about everything!

In Jesus' Name.

Hoopla Surrounding the Charities: TRUST NO ONE

I, for one am not surprised by what's coming out right now about the different charities, and their abuse of, "power." The taking advantage of others, the sex - with children and or adults.  It's despicable, but not a surprise to me at all.   I had spent time on the street, as you know.

Actually, let me share something I learned back then, and mind you, I grew up with a mother who was often at the head of and or a founder of various charities. (and I love her, God rest her soul, but she was a hypocrite of the highest degree, and she knows it).

Few charities, few richies, ever helped when I was on the street.  This may seem and sound arrogant of me, but, I used to call that experience, my, "Christ-like experiment," for it showed you, who really helps those in need, and who doesn't.

Those who helped, without ever wanting anything in return, were always the downtrodden; the five dollar hookers, the other poor, the illegals, and even the drug dealers. They'd give us food, (not drugged), have their friends put us up in their hotels (the Indians), share money, etc..  The richies, would walk by and say I should have my kids ripped from me, and call the cops, (little did they know, the cops and I were on friendly terms, so...).  They never shared, never bought us food, or a place to stay.

Anyway, what really gets me the most about this whole charity thing, is that, even worse than these men using these people as basically, a tissue, (to shoot their sperm into), how many of these people, BELIEVED that maybe, commitment, marriage, would be in the cards for them?  Can you imagine?  How flipping hurtful.  Seriously.

This brings me to a recent show that was on TLC, called, 90 Day Fiance (my husband is an addict).  I tried watching this with the husband, but was made SO UNCOMFORTABLE, by a character, in Haiti, who seemed to, and was likely, just such a person (using these people as nothing more than tissues), I said something to the husband, something along the lines of, "what do you want to bet he's a clinton foundation or from some other charity down there to, "help."" The husband noted, as the series progressed, it was clear that this character, dropped/moved on from this girl, because she, "got a bit too old for his tastes." SPECULATION on both of our parts, yes, however, usually, when my gut radar goes off, it's usually right.

Check out this, smarmy fellow, in the clip below, and tell me he doesn't make your stomach do flips.

Child Sexual Abuse & An Open Secret (doc)

While responding to a video in regards to the Jehovah Witness possible child sex ring***, etc. I shared something I know, yet had hidden away in my memories; that of the lack thereof, of those within the psychology fields, of handing over said abusers to law enforcement.

I spent a great deal of my childhood locked away in NYS rehabs (four winds, arms acres, st. vincent's, etc), a behavioral modification school (Amity in italy), and a halfway house in chippewa falls, WI. I was sent to most, for being, "on the pot!," with the exceptions of four winds, and then amity, as I was sent to those in succession for running away from my home when I was 14.  The rest were subsequent.  ***

ALL of those places mentioned above, were FILLED, PRIMARILY WITH ADOLESCENTS.  Adolescents who had been sexually abused in their childhoods, and usually, in their homes.  These things would come out within group therapy sessions, and for the most part, I believed them all.  There were a few at Amity who I feel, were pressured into saying it, being as we'd be locked in a room, on the other side of the ocean, indefinitely until they, "cracked." But the rest, my gut told me then, and now, that these kids were telling the truth.

NOW, NEVER, DID I ONCE SEE LEGAL CHARGES BROUGHT FORTH AGAINST SAID ACCUSED.  NOT ONCE.  And to make matters worse, the accused would often come around whichever campus we were on!  Even sadder, at these places within the United States, IF a kid would act out, have a freak out, etc., which can be common, WHEN NO ONE IS LISTENING TO YOU, you can bet the staff would call law enforcement, adding more trouble onto to an already troubled child's life. 

OK> some food for thought, CHILD SEXUAL ABUSE WASN'T EVEN A, "THING," UNTIL THE 1970's.  Just think about that for a moment.  

Finally, here's a link to the documentary film, An Open Secret (about the pedophlia problem plaguing hollywood).

https://vimeo.com/142444429

Have a good day.

*** I became a "druggie," after leaving these places - so, 18+, and a heroin addict, 20+, though sober since the ages of 24/25.  My mentality/logic, at that time had been, why not become all the things I've been labeled, AND, I did, want to try to die.  Dio Mio!  My adolescence is probably why I embrace the aging process now!!! For, it is nothing short of a miracle that I'm alive, after having such idiotic thought processes as a youngster, lol.

*** there were often Jehovah Witness kids in the NYS rehabs, and with what they'd share, this news of child sex rings within their church, is not a surprise.

BLESSINGS! 

A Connection Between Lil Peep's Death and Philip Ahr?

Ok guys, gals.  You know me, I tend to read inbetween the lines when reading the news, and see connections that may only be clear to me (although, I do have a tendency of finding out I was right in the end).  So here's my latest, "connection," I noted, and have since, come across two things to support my, "theory."

The Death of Lil' Peep

I had not even heard of Lil Peep until his death.  But what I had mentally noted, was his unusual last name of, Ahr.  I found myself unable to shake running his name through my head, Gustav Ahr, that whole day and night.  Then it hit me!  I had google +'ed and article, around this past Halloween, of a PA politician, from the county over, named, Philip Ahr, who had been arrested for possession of a HOARD of filthy, sick and HIGHLY ILLEGAL pornography (links below)!

http://www.philly.com/philly/news/crime/phil-ahr-resigns-as-radnor-township-board-president-amid-child-porn-allegations-20171023.html

http://heavy.com/news/2017/10/philip-phil-ahr-radnor-pennsylvania-democrat-child-porn/

In the article I had first read about Lil' peep's death, in the daily mail.uk, they said, his parents met at harvard and he was born in - PA (the only article I can find now, makes no mention of PA.  I promise you, I did not imagine it).

Ok, so so far, we have two people in the news, in a very short span of time, both with the last name of AHR and BOTH, with ties to the state of Pennsylvania.

Now, My Theory on the, "Connection." 

It is definitely, more than likely that Philip Ahr, the perverted politician, wasn't just looking at this gross trove, but partaking in and with the YOUTHFUL flesh as well (his, "mentoring," as mentioned in the Heavy.com article linked above, is certainly more than a red flag).  Now, what better way to send a signal/warning shot to him, to KEEP HIS MOUTH SHUT, in regards to those who are trafficking the children for sex in PA (from philly, chester and lancaster counties, all the way up to state college and everywhere inbetween), than to cause the death of someone connected to him, AND to blatantly get away with it?  Not to mention, an addict is THE easiest and most perfect person to murder.   No one will ever think twice.

So, IT WAS MURDER!

I came to this conclusion, connecting my mental dots last Friday.  Either yesterday, or the day before (Monday), I came across an article on MediaTakeOut talking about how, Lil Peep was given, "hot," xanax, (or whatever pills were his drug of choice).   Link below.

http://mtonews.com/mto-shock-exclusive-2/

I realize they're not, the most reliable news source, yet there it is.

Just now, I came across this video, Black Child Productions posted on youtube, please go to the six minute mark.

People, I think we have a winner!

There is NOT a more profitable business in the world than that of trafficking human beings, with children at the TOP of that pyramid. 

I know, that the person, I allude to often when talking about my daughter's case, was and most likely still IS, the JEFFREY EPSTEIN of PA, and if he falls, so many highly established people will fall too.  It's a tower, they cannot afford to have crumble.  Just like a perverted game of Jenga.

Be well, be strong, be vigilant and be with us, with God.

Have a good day.

A Moment of Therapy: Sex Assaults, and on the Young (w/added thought)

With all of the hoopla coming out currently about the highly, sexual atmosphere of Hollywood, and elsewhere, really, I've found myself reading headlines, and thinking, of how many similar situations I had been in myself.  I had also found myself getting slightly irritated that most of the cases involved women who quite honestly, should've known better (don't get offended, and let me explain).

Several months ago, I was thinking to myself, that it had probably been safer for me, in the long run, to have abandoned the world of the, "elite," at the prime age (18) and instead, taking refuge on the street.  At that time,  as I was reflecting, I was thinking only in terms of, being put, putting myself in a situation where I couldn't have run away, and sought help (i.e.: a secluded estate, vs the city street), because, God knows, I would've (put myself in such a situation).  I wasn't even thinking of terms of, putting myself in situations for 'bettering myself," (i.e.: fame, a job, etc.), because at that age, when I left the, "civilized world," I just wanted to party, or get fucked up (drugged out of my mind), and whichever road got me there, I was in, on it.

Which brings me to the current situation.  I was getting angry because I would compare the women coming out about Weinstein, to the kids, being put into a situation where they didn't have a choice.  The abuse, was survival. Such as what happened to me at my boarding school (which was in Italy, therefor I was physically isolated from family, as well as what little communication was allowed with them; letters, phone calls, even visits, were all monitored).  I played the game.  The headmaster never, physically sexually assaulted me, however, I was ordered by him, to, "break in," an 18 year old virgin, and then tell him all about our weekend of, "fucking like rabbits.:  I had to do this, in his apartment, sitting on his lap, while he was in an open robe, with his boxers on and penis slipping out.  Of course, at that time, I knew that was inappropriate, especially in a school which thrived on expelling, "unacceptable behavior."  Nonetheless, I played the game.  I was 15, 16 years old.

However, two headlines struck me today, and one, brought up for me how one, "teacher," from this same boarding school, would lend this 18 year old virgin and me, his apartment, and hotel rooms for us to have sex in.  Something, which only now, do I realized how, unacceptable that was too.  This led me to think about, and REALIZE, that my barometer of what was acceptable for my body was askew.  And why?   My issues with lack of self worth began with my adopted father.  And, it was that initial bout of having my body violated as a nine year old, THAT ONE TIME, as that is all I remember, (though it is documented, as I began wetting the bed, which led my mother to get my a psychiatrist), that fucked me up so.  Actually, so much more than I had realized.

But here's my point; that sole indiscretion on my adopted father's part, fucked me up so much, subconsciously, that for the next fifteen or more years, I had lost what an acceptable barometer was for how men treated me and my body! For the second headline today was in reference to another celeb who had a propensity for having sex with women who were passed out.  That was how I met my youngest daughters father!  Something which although DID repulse me, yet I accepted being as I felt I didn't matter.

Now I am bringing this all up, because I mentioned to my youngest daughter about that celeb, because I was on the fence of whether charges should be brought now.  The fence being; the person who did that to me, my youngest daughter's father, went on to rape her too.  Something, that wouldn't have happened if I had felt I was worth more.

And then she and I were discussing this, discussing how even would pursuing criminal charges be worth it to the victims now?  Or would it be better to forgive, not forget.  Meaning,  letting go of the anger, for the perps.  It's so hard to say.

I'd like to add that I didn't get that, "barometer," until I had my kids.  And it was still, only for them.  I couldn't allow things to happen to them, that happened to me.  They weren't like me.  They were and are, worth more than gold.  So when my daughter was being harmed, I went balls to the wall, and fought for her safety like a mother should.  Yet, it almost killed me.  For, fighting this, sex crimes against a child, children, legally - it's a nightmare.  The law is not on your side.  The cops may be, but not the people in the courtroom.  (added thought: my daughter is strong, confident now, and nothing like I was.  I know, she wouldn't be mad if Dexter dealt with her father, but I'm not sure if she'd want to go through the court, trying for justice, again.  The important thing is, she IS not on a self destructive path because, in my honest opinion, what happened to her, it was ACKNOWLEDGED.  Thus, DON'T SHUT UP- about it, men, women and children.  PLEASE.  Talking about it, will heal you.)

Anyway, I hope the rest comes out.  Everyone says marijuana, booze, jeez, sniffing pixi stixs are the, "gateways," to drugs.  NO!  I say, being sexually violated as a child is.

Go get 'em.

GODBLESS

***ADDED THOUGHT*** 11/11/17

I started watching the show, Blue, with Julia Styles on Vudu, and wanted to share, that if anyone wants to see a great depiction of the result of having your body violated as a child, (16 and under, for sure), she does a great job at it.


Have a good day!

FINALLY, Some Vindication

Great news!  Slightly.  I read this morning that, Lancaster, PA attorney, Jeffrey Mohler has been disbarred for five years.  If you have read this blog, you will remember this same clown didn't pay off my mortgage for over two months after closing.  True, he admitted it when I confronted him, AFTER being notified by my own mortgage company.

HOWEVER, in my honest opinion, there was more to our story, of him choosing ME to not pay off my mortgage. You see, also if you have read this blog, you will know that I had to fight a fight that I wouldn't wish on ANY PARENT.  That of, protecting my child, from rapists within the machine, aka The Establishment.  To recap, my kid's rapist that we know of, for certain, was her biological father.  Her biological father got involved with a wealthy, local man, known by at least THREE police departments as being a, "legal AND illegal business man."  He was involved in drugs, human trafficking and pornography.  He also paid for every lawyer to fight against me, AND he was POA for this house closing.  A closing where I was shoved into a closet, while he was treated like a king.  Therefore, Mohler and he a coincidence?  I think not.

LINKS (make sure you read the parts written in RED, for both links.  TY)

Here's where I wrote about Mohler and other corruption by the local Establishment

https://noratellicat.blogspot.com/2017/02/proof-of-judges-committing-treason.html

Re-cap of how my kid got involved, which would be good to read considering all of this, with Hollywood is coming out now, and yes, I blame the parents.  For unlike adults, KIDS ARE BEING PUT INTO SITUATIONS WHERE THEY DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE, and the parents are doing it for money.  Pimping their kids.

https://noratellicat.blogspot.com/2017/07/the-pedophile-network-reaches-everywhere.html

That jeffrey epstein character, that local, "legal and illegal," (as described by several police depth.) biz man   I just noticed, his main office, which is above a gas station off the highway, is closed, with a sign covering the sign, basically saying there's a fire sale.  Is the noose tightening?  God, I hope so.

Godbless